Things have been a little quiet on the western front, and that's not due to me slipping up particularly, but largely due to the huge downer on life I've felt whilst being on crutches. Having worked in the Paralympic Village, I am 100% aware a) I am actually not that unlucky, broken bones heal b) the achievements of people missing legs let alone just having broken a couple of bones. But knowing the kind of drive and motivation I had at the beginning of this week, compared to now, has gotten to me quite a lot. I'm still sticking to calorie restrictions etc, and due to not properly drinking as I'm unable to go 'out out' I will probably be the first person ever to lose weight whilst on crutches! So every cloud, but I want to be going to the gym and playing football! And this thought process is causing me to feel quite rubbish of late. Which I suppose is only natural.

I really don't want this to turn into a blog about my ankle recovery, I actually run a main lifestyle blog alongside this, so that's where I'll be recording my progress with all of that. But I wanted to summarise why I've been feeling pretty awful. Starting tomorrow, I'll be back to food diary-ing, I promise.

I can do this.

One of the things I always find hard when trying to lose weight, is that I tend to throw myself into it and then steadily slip and eventually after the holiday/birthday party/wedding is over, I stop the dieting and stop the fitness regime I've got going. To prevent this, I thought this year I would start to have 'monthly motivators'. Rather than going all out and buying brand new beautiful gym clothes or trainers, I want to prize them through the months as I reach my goals.

Not all of these goals are materialistic, a couple of my goals throughout the year are to run outside over the summer when I'm more comfortable with running and to start up yoga later on in the year to strengthen my core when I feel my fitness is much better. It's small steps but it's these which keep me motivated!

I've already mentioned my first goal is my Dad's birthday, by which point I want to be down 14lbs-20lbs. I currently have plenty of clothes and shoes, however I am a classic girl and any opportunity for more leads me to spending money as fast as you can see French Connection. So I've decided, I'm not going to spend any money on clothes or goods until I reach my first goal. At which point I'm going to probably buy a dress for my Dad's birthday to wear! Here are a couple of dresses I have in mind...


This essentially sums up my sense of dress, I love bold prints and casual shirt dresses at the moment, my two favourites are on either end above! They're so adaptable and I feel like they suit any body shape. So it is with these dresses and February 20th at the front of my mind, I will persevere on!

I can do this.

I've always been a skinny latte girl. It's more an internal justification for buying a muffin too. Or a panini. Or both. But today I spent all day in a coffee shop, from writing an essay to catching up with friends. And whilst I did have my initial skinny latte, I went through the rest of the day on a steady stream of green tea. I know for some people this might be a bit of a challenge, with the aroma of coffee in the air, but I actually really like green tea so it wasn't a massive challenge. It's incredibly hard to resist temptation however, when you're with your friend who's having a hot chocolate with whipped cream and a flake and marshmallows. Stealing a marshmallow was definitely on the horizon when she went to the toilet, but I resisted (and I would never actually do that)!

So, Food Diary number 1 here we go:
Breakfast:
1/2 wholemeal bagel
1/2 avocado (spread onto the bagel)
1 large fried egg (fried in frylight)

Snacks:
Skinny latte
Green tea
Tyrrels vegetable crisps

Dinner:
Frylight chicken breast
Homemade brown basmati coconut rice with yellow peppers and peas
Lemon and herb sauce 1.5tsp
Philadelphia Light 1bsp

 I'm not being a total arse and starving myself, but I woke up extremely late today (gone 11) and had an even later breakfast, pushing on lunch so I wasn't massively hungry until it was actual dinner time! I would also have gone for a walk, however the weather was not having any of it today and I spent the majority of my time in the coffee shop listening to the rain.

I can do this.

One of the hardest things for me to come to terms with before deciding to lose weight, is I am never going to be one of the #fistagram, green smoothie girls. I've lost weight before through various means and at no point post-workout was I ever in a place to take a selfie or 'record my macros'. I'm under no illusion losing weight is hard, and it takes will power and a hell tonne of motivation to move your butt.

I will be the first one to say, Instagram is a huge motivator, But don't let it delude you. I'm a 20 year old student, I have next to no money and spend my time in lectures, in the library or at work. I don't have manicured nails and I can't afford a Nike running bra. The truth is, I don't just want photos of girls wearing nothing, drinking their post workout Nutribullet smoothie, I want to know how to lose weight when you can't afford a gym membership. How to eat healthily when you're constantly on the go. What breakfasts you can make the night before so you can eat it doing your makeup.

This blog is going to be a motivator for myself, because I want to prove to myself real life girls can do this, and I want to eventually be a motivator to other people. I've decided my first target date, which will be my Dad's birthday and when I will next be back home, February 20th. My aim is to lose between 14-20lbs in 7 weeks and I'll be continuing to set goals and motivate myself on here throughout this time!

I can do this. 

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